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dear love,

here i am on your demand. here i am writing my exact thoughts to you. here i am,handing over my heart to you. i am the same that you knew me from before. when you were still you. and for that,there is not much for me to say. i will not say anything about me this will be about you. this is,after all,what you want from me,topping your wishlist.

i am writing this bearing in mind that we both are in love. i stand corrected.

i love the way you smile and the way you laugh. the lines formed on your beautiful face when your lips curl in the most magnificent way,it melts my heart. i love the way your laughter fades in the background in a room full of people,but only me can hear. i love the husky sound coming from your lips when you say my name in a way that no one else can says it.

i like it when you deny all the bad things they say about me,when you yourself were not sure of the truth. but the faith you had in me,that was all that matters. you were my superhero. mine. i cant see what anyone can see in anyone else but you. people can say a thousand bad things about you in a span on 3 hours,but all i will hear is your name they utter. the rest is silence.

i like it when when you let me draw the sun and moon and who knows what else on your palm while you pretended to be asleep. oh !!i love the way you blush,you turn scarlet red and when you finally pretended to wake up and read my scribblings. your astounding eyes glitters in mine.

dont leave me hanging
in a city so dead
held up so high
on such a breakable thread


at that ver moment,i refused to believe 'we' were happening. it was to good to be true. it was more like a dream come true. better than anything i ever dreamt of. but of course,dreams end when the sun rises.


i believe you knew me pretty well before you decide to borrow my heart,no?

and yet i have warned you beforehand,i have not vhanged. it was you who changed. i dont know what went wrong but of course it is your fault. you neither love nor hate me. you are keeping me for convenience's sake. you refuse to let me go,but you wont let me feel wanted anymore. you monkey !

you treat me like an old buddy. i am not a joke. neither i am your bloody toy. i wouldnt have agreed to be yours if i knew you will turn out to be just like any other men nation on earth. my bad.

i can bite. my patience has limitations. i wont have it if you're telling me to stay inside,trapped,while you can go making fool of yourself. i wont have it if you get to taste all the fun while i have to faithfully kneel on my knees waiting for you to return. i have a life and my life is much more fun than that. need i remind you?? my life doesnt revovle around you only. so keep your nose down.

you were everything,everything
that i wanted
were were meant to be supposed to be
but we lost it


you are so full of yourself. its true that i approve of your overall appearance,for lack of better words. you are handsome. but surely that doesnt mean i dont repeat the same to other guys like you. i toned down the flirting business,for your sake. i am born loyal. loyalty is my best trait.

while my temper is my worst.

the i-dont-have-the-strength-to-stay-away-from-you ensemble is only for edward cullen,dedicated to isabella swan. if you use that on me,it wont work out,not in million years. surely you are aware that i am not that mellow? what happened to woman pride/ you must be blended by my charm.

so why is that every time i tried to justify why i am feeling left out and uncared of,you call me dramatic? sure,sure. i may be a drama queen but i am your drama queen. you chose me. it was you who went around asking people if i liked you too. you were the one who use all means you could to win my attention. you were the one who plucked the guitar in front of everyone,the one who stutter when you speak,the one who swallow the bitter pill that they call pride,before you could have me.

yes it was you. you. not me. and yes i will haunt you in your most devilish nightmare.

love